Oh, that’s life.
There’s nothing I could do about its decisions other than to live it one day at a time. How things turned out this way is still a mystery to me, yet somehow, I feel okay with it. Surprisingly.
Yes, I am sad and disappointed about some things lately, but as I think about the future and the endless possibilities of having a well-lived 20’s excites me a lot. Another is that, my job really keeps my mind off personal matters. I love teaching, I always have and I could not be more grateful and thankful to be doing it right now.
The love department shall not matter. It should not be a priority. And though I know that some part of me is still with him (gosh, a part of me is in Seoul now LOLjk) I’m kinda glad that we didn’t end up having a long distance relationship which is bound to get tumultous anyway in the long run, as what always happen to any other LDR things.
So right now, it’s to live life one day at a time. Save tomorrow for tomorrow. Think of today instead, as Ted Neeley said in Jesus Christ Superstar.
Wherever he is though, I wish him well. And though I said I’ll wait, I’ll move forward. Because I cannot stay in the same place for too long, I need to grow as an individual as well. Perhaps, this move will make me a better person for him one day and he for me. I don’t know for sure.
One thing is constant though and that is life is always unfair but it doesn’t mean it can’t be lived well.