Pause.

Pause.

They say the smartest people are losers in love but I beg to differ… Love is irrational. It was and will always be as such hence, no matter how stupid or smart you are, when that person comes into your life, brings sunshine and all that bullshit that comes with an almost perfect and fairy-tale like relationship would soon rip your heart out and trample it even if all they mean was they needed some time for themselves… but come on, seriously? You’d fall for that excuse. That’s just like breaking up ahead of time—

Okay, so that was harsh… and really bitter, but as I said, love is irrational and ironically, it is life changing. And often times, when a romantic relationship falls apart, people would scream at you to move on and get a life–now that’s difficult, especially when you have loved truly and purely for the first time. Moving on is probably the most difficult phase one has to go through in this lifetime…

“I’m in love with her, okay? If you’re looking for the word that means caring about someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want, no matter how much it destroys you, it’s love, and when you love someone, you just, you don’t stop, ever. Even when people roll their eyes or call you crazy. Even then. Especially then. You just… you don’t give up! Because if I could give up. if I could just, you know, take the whole world’s advice and move on and find someone else, that wouldn’t be love. That would be, that would be some other disposable thing that is not worth fighting for.”  – Ted Mosby – How I Met Your Mother

Now when he said that he just wanted to pause for a dozen of reasons that will (or might) someday give us trust issues, he broke my heart. No word in any dictionary in this world will be able to describe how much that hurts and how painful it is still right now… I held him back, I didn’t give up in a snap but I know better than to continue doing that. He needs time to fix himself, I gave him that too along with everything and every stupid relationship rule that I once had. Threw it all away because I thought that this was it, and face it Mike, you thought of it too… but it turns out that he’s still haunted by his past; it was, to him, such a traumatic experience and he didn’t want to go through it all over again, he didn’t want me to go through the hell he did.

When I loved Mike, I knew (didn’t ‘thought‘, ‘knew‘ yeah didn’t and thought but whatevs, making a point here) that he is the right one that he is the one… I knew right then and there that if I were to give my everything to someone, it was to him… even if I have to go through hell and back I will, and I will… I will wait for him. Because true love waits, true and pure love forgives, and forgets about all the pain of the past… in God’s time, I still believe that he’ll be back.

I know when love is over and when it’s not… and I am sure as hell that this will just be a *lost weekend. I will wait, because I can, I need to and I want to… because I love him purely.

WAIT if your love is truly UNCONDITIONAL.

*lost weekend is a term John Lennon and Yoko Ono used to describe the long period of time that they have decided to separate to focus in their careers despite of their strong love for each other.

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