Brand New Chapter

And definitely a serious one. I am not getting any younger and I have to start thinking about my responsibilities as a person, most specially as a daughter, sister and soon as a wife and mother… although my duties in the family has always been my priority even when I was younger, I know that I have to thrive more, even more now that I have Mike to think about. Usually, I would just treat my siblings out for dinner every week when I get my paycheck and just give them their weekly allowance. I would not think of saving some for myself for my future needs, whatever’s left of my weekly salary I would spend on books, red lipsticks, sunglasses and food. I was at ease of the fact that I would never get a bigger responsibility than that for I have completely given up hope about someday having a family of my own.

Then Mike came, turning my world upside down in an instant. Suddenly, I was thinking of far more important things than what book to buy next. Then I also realized all of a sudden that my baby brother, Patrick, is getting older and that he has increasing needs as well. Which brings us to the matters of work and savings… I started taking work seriously and I am REALLY working on my savings. HAHA! It is funny when I think about it and as I am writing about it now, I couldn’t help but to giggle.

I have savings issue, I have always had and it could be traced back to my elementary days with books and paper dolls. But believe it or not, I am great at saving for things that I love to have, which I consider a good thing because I know that I’m not completely hopeless, I just have to overcome my impulsiveness when it comes to books, cute cupcakes, red lipsticks and expensive sunglasses. It’s not going to be a walk in the park but I believe it’s not that hard as well.

I have to do this not because I just have to but also because I want to. I really do, the year is almost over and I have but a little over than five grand left in my name when I could have had thrice as much by now. I have plans of traveling soon, I have plans of traveling more in the future so I have to double the effort in terms of savings. My income is never the problem, it’s my spending. I love what I do right now, believe me and the paycheck is amazing I guess what I need now is control and constant guidance and reminder. LOL

I am starting another chapter of my life and this time, I want to make it right.


Filed under Family, General, Spending Issues

Awakened.

Yes, this is another comeback post (with a dramatic title) about how much have happened in my offline life since I became idle from the blogosphere. I’ve taken down everything and decided to give this site a fresh new start… it’s another, ironically same old, project from scratch, but what the hell I’m getting rusty-not only in writing my thoughts down but also in basic web design.

I am using a pre-made theme right now (credits at the bottom) but I’ll soon change it with my own work; I’ll work on pages soon, still contemplating whether to put back the tutorial and free themes page but I do have plans on monetizing this site again, just need to borrow someone’s paypal account in a couple of weeks though this domain is about to expire again and I don’t want this to be in a hanging sort of state for a couple more weeks because of delayed payments. LOL

So getting back to business.

I have officially resigned from teaching in a regular school due to extreme tension migraine brought by the lack of sleep, weird eating pattern and STRESS, generally. I have also taken my licensure examination as I resigned from my teaching job and I am now still awaiting results. I’m really hoping to see my name on the passers list, that’s just what I was waiting for actually, it was the only excitement I had for sometime, especially after the final breakup that took place right after the board exam. Yes, in two weeks tops my life took a sort of 360 turn, it wasn’t such a mess. It was hard, but I am just glad that it’s all over now.

Over the past few months, I have fallen out of love, resigned from work, took the board exam, went to a lot of night outs, broke some rules, stayed up all night with a special friend, went to rock concerts, planned a wedding, and fell in love in a flash of a lightening.

Right now, I can say that no matter how chaotic and unplanned my life was in the past months based on the summary of events listed above this paragraph, I have learned a great deal of lessons from people and experiences alike… It was a hell of a roller coaster ride-probably one with a few hoops- but it was a fun ride, a bit nerve wracking but what ride isn’t?

But I am done with the wobbling part after the hell of a ride, I can say that I have established my balance better than before. I am keener and I love deeper now…probably more truthful than before as I have recently met (don’t know if ‘met’ is the right term as I have known his existence since I was a kid) the person whom I am ready to take chances with and, as if God has seen something good in my deeds, He made our parents take a very special interest in helping us connect and build a relationship.

It was blissful, it was prompt. But that’s the thing-it will never take you long to realize you truly love a person. Love doesn’t need to be deliberated, if you are still thinking of whether you love a person or not you don’t, although you will learn to, eventually. Because when love is real, you know it pretty quickly and with absolute certainty… That was what happened to me recently.

I always thought that love was something that has to be learned and to be given but it wasn’t. It is something you do not expect to feel yet you are willing to share it together. I know it’s too early for me to say these things but they’re true.

So that’s the mushy part but that is exactly where I am at this moment.

God has a great plan ahead, I know and I am willing to follow.


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Bloggers.com Featured Profile

I was really surprised to have a couple of new foreign Twitter followers yesterday when I came home from church. I accepted their requests of course, but little did I know that my profile on Bloggers.com was already featured. It took me about two hours to finally see their tweets about me and well, as usual when I get shocked and excited, I screamed like a little girl-literally. :blush:

So yeah, it rattled a couple of living things in this huge box and it may be a little embarrassing but I was just so in awe because I haven’t even accessed my Bloggers.com profile for weeks! Plus, I was not sure I was even getting votes let alone enough to be featured, but I did and I am just really thankful.

I’ve received comments from people I don’t even know congratulating me and some were even telling me that they’re glad I was finally featured. And I was just like, “Wow!” there really are people reading my blog after all and some of them really liked what I write about. And although the comments were not that many that it floods my comment box on Bloggers.com, still they’re something. Oh no, scratch that, that’s really something! :D

Thank you for all the people who commented, voted and liked my blog! I was honestly thinking of transferring this blog to my other domain because I cannot access it without a proxy, but with such honor, how could I ever do it? I might just stick to using proxies just to add some content. Cheers guys and Godspeed everyone! :D


Filed under Achievement, General

Almost End of Term

You’ve read that right, first term is about to end in a month or so and my stack of paper work is higher than ever. T.T But I really missed blogging so I thought I’d write something today. :) It’s been quite a while since I last blogged, and a lot has really happened in my offline life since I last posted. One was a break up, another is my week-long birthday celebration and more of internship stuff mostly.

The break up was okay, it’s nothing to feel remorseful about really. We remained good friends after it, and I’m sure it will do us both good, especially now that’s he’s starting a career, and of course I’m almost crawling to the college finish line. I felt bad about having to go through it again, but I guess we are not meant to be together at the moment… we’re not entirely closing our doors for each other, though.

Anyway, enough of the break up thinggy, after that incident I celebrated my 20th birthday with two awesome birthday celebrations. The first was on my exact birthday, September 11th. I only invited my really close friends for dinner in our Korean Restaurant and I must say that it’s the best birthday celebration I had so far. We just ate, drank and laughed all evening as we talk about the most random things and became quite nostalgic. I wish we could do that often, but I guess we live so differently now and have our own responsibilities and obligations in life now… Men, that sucks but I really wish one day we can get together every weekend or at least once a month to catch up on each other’s lives. That would be terrific. :D Oh pictures :D

The second celebration was in our house and it was meant for my students and classmates, but sadly only my good friends and one student of mine came. My mom’s best friend came too, which made the small party livelier. I got so drunk that night that I went totally blank. LOL I have never ever experienced that in my entire life, and I don’t think I want to do it again. Ha-ha!

With regard to my internship, I’m almost done with my 300 hours for this term. I am really looking forward to finishing it… it can really get stressful. Proof? I rarely get sick before… now it’s as if flu is a regular visitor. T.T Yeah, I’m really having a tough time getting through this semester, but I guess I’ll just have to do my best to get through my last year in college… I mean, how bad can it get right? :D

I’m trying to stay positive at all times, I guess that’s what was keeping me from breaking down entirely. LOL Well, that’s all for now. Hope to blog again soon. Ciao! :D


Filed under Family, General, Party, Personal

Drunk Driving Lesson

I know a lot of people who drink and drive after spending the entire evening at a friend’s house and it scares me that most of them might be involved in car accidents in the future, or worse—being caught in act by the authority.

Considering the fact that a person driving under the influence of alcohol is against the law, they might not be involved in a car accident (yet!) but they can be legally charged for DUI (driving under the influence) or DWI (driving while intoxicated) when they get caught by the police. While first offense only charges the offender a misdemeanor DUI, a repeated allegation would result to felony DUI.

Being caught DUI or DWI is like being in an accident as well, in the financial sense that is. Just diminish the finances involved in getting the area cleaned up and the medical fees, but in the same way the offender will still be charged for the crime he or she has committed. The offender would need to hire a special DUI lawyer for his DWI defense and that lawyer would need to let the offender understand the sentence of a repeated DUI offense.

See, all these commotion only for drunk driving. So friends, please do drive safely and sober!


Filed under General, Sideline, Sponsored, Travel

Site Analyzer

This is going to be quite a boring and nerdy post, but trust me it’s really handy.

So I got an e-mail from someone, perhaps a blogger, telling me to check this site out called StatMyWeb.com. I did, and searched for my website and it gave me a detailed info about my website including the date it was bought, where is it hosted, how much is it worth and where does it rank on the web. I find it really nifty since I get to know where I rank and what parts of the site I could work on to make it better. If you would like to check out this site’s stat click here.

For bloggers who accepts paid articles or sponsored review on their websites, I suggest that you take a look into this site as to know whether you are being compensated enough according to your blog’s statistics. So far, my blog’s worth does not display perhaps because it’s fairly new (my blog is up for only less than three months). Oh and have I mentioned that it also tracks the total of your daily unique visitors?

Apart from that, if you scroll down to the bottom of the page it will tell you your W3C HTML Validation Analysis. It also has a record of when you last updated your site. It has a lot more feature that I have yet explored myself. Waah I’m beginning to be a nerdok, and I hope you’d forgive me for that. I just feel like sharing it. I suggest you look in to it to know its other features since I haven’t explored it much. :) Cheers!


Filed under General, Sideline, Sponsored

You’ll Never Know…

I still feel like crying after seeing the photo below early this afternoon.


Credit: Mr. Dennis L. Santos

You’ve probably saw it on the evening news tonight, the horrible accident that shook the entire town of Taytay, Rizal early this afternoon. A dump truck went out of control and eventually crashed into a police outpost, killing five people. I was with Abby in McDonald’s Valley Golf this afternoon having our lunch when it happened, and I’m not sure who told us of the news first, but her aunt sent her a message in Facebook asking for her whereabouts, apparently she heard of the news already (I don’t even know how, because she’s in Canada) and was worried for Abby. Our good friend Felice sent Abby a text message confirming the accident, telling us that she has been stuck in traffic for almost an hour because of it.

I was in a bit of a shock when we were informed of the news, because Felice and I were planning to go home early but I decided to stay in school because of school work and because I still have a class at 5:30pm. I was thinking of saving my money when people were desperate to save lives. What’s worse is while I was browsing through the updates of my friends in Facebook I saw the photo of the accident, and when I started browsing through all the photos, I found the picture above. I nearly cried, I’m sure if we were not in a public place I would have done it. The photo just made me worried of the owner of that school book, I was imagining an innocent little girl on her way to school. My heart sank at the thought of it, and what I saw on the news on my way home (I took the bus) made me feel even worse. The owner of the book was an 11 year old boy who was on his way to school; he was running late because he was asked to sell rags by his mother for his and his two other sibling’s allowance for the day.

The older sibling was interviewed, and she does not seem to display any sign of grief from the death of her younger brother. I felt really bad… and-I know it’s really weird but I was imagining myself as the older sibling… Perhaps I would have gone ballistic if that ever (but I do wish and pray to God that it won’t) happen to any of my younger brothers. Maybe the media won’t be able to talk to me either, but looking at the sister of the poor boy she was not even slightly tensed. :’(

I was literally trembling on my seat. I closed my eyes and uttered a short prayer for those who were killed, especially for that poor little boy. His death was, I guess, the most tragic among those who were killed… if you would look into this site, they have a photo of the boy-I don’t want to and I definitely can’t describe the photo, so just see it for yourselves.

My mom doesn’t have any idea about it because she was in Quezon City the entire day, but I told her immediately when she called me this evening. She told me what she would always say when things like this happen… “Never forget to utter a prayer wherever you are, because you will never know when you will be joining God.” . I hope everyone who would read this would also take at least a few seconds to utter a simple prayer for the people who went home to God today. God bless everyone and keep safe.


Filed under Family, Food for Thoughts, General, Love

Au Revoir, Lola Celi.

As my fiance and I were watching Zombie land on our monthsary last Friday, June 24, my grand mother was taken in the ICU, and at 6pm that same day, she passed away.

I didn’t know until we decided to go home. I received a text message from my mom that she already passed away. In my mind, I saw my late father’s face… the one happy face that he wore just before he passed away in May of last year. I couldn’t feel that wowa (that’s what we used to call her) is dead, honestly… it’s as if she’s still there in the living room of her house, sitting in front of the TV watching random shows all day.

I honestly am bad at reacting on certain circumstances. I just don’t know how to take news like that, until the knife of pain comes rushing to me and plunging into my heart. When I was informed that my late pops was dead, it was over the phone, and I kept my facial expression and voice as I normally would speak or ask of someone. Later that morning, after hearing the news, I remembered myself tearing into a million pieces. I cried alone, I didn’t want people to see me crying, it just feel awkward to me. I held my tears for the rest of his wake, until the pain is no longer bearable, I just had to pour it out. I probably cried for hours, literally, on the last night of my father’s wake. He didn’t die a tragic death, my papa… but it’s a very tragic news to me, for just when I was just starting to include him in my plans for the future, he was taken away from me.

Going back to my grandma, I miss her, even if we haven’t shared too much of a moment together, but the little family gatherings, and visits I make in her home makes me feel terribly sad. She’s a good woman, religious, caring and loving. She’s almost the perfect grandma, but I never grew too close to her, but still she treats me as if I did. She asks for me when I fail to visit her, she always even send me home some of my favorite meals. Right now, as I make this post, I could see her face constantly flashing before my eyes.

I miss her, but like my papa, it was her time to go. We never had control over one’s life, it seems unfair, but as weird as it may seem, it’s good that they left this earth, for in the hands of God they live.


Filed under Family, General, Personal

Respect.

Mkay, so I’ve stumbled upon a blog earlier this evening and I was kind of enjoying its reviews and tutorials, until I have come across an article written about how the Bible is not a reliable source. The blogger even had a timeline which I did not even read, not because it’s too long, but because I know that the facts the blogger have written are sacrilege. I scanned through the older posts and realized that the blogger was Agnostic. By definition, an Agnostic person is someone who claims that he cannot have true knowledge about the existence of God. To make things short, an Agnostic person does not believe in God, at all.

I don’t usually rant about being a Christian, knowing for a fact that I was baptized a catholic and am only attending Born-again Christian services every Sunday to grasp more insights from the Bible, but with what I have read, I think it’s totally disrespectful to even do that kind of thing, especially in a public domain such as a blog site. I don’t really know the blogger’s purpose on writing that article and posting it for the public to see, although I am aware that a webmaster has all the right to post whatever they want on their websites, BUT given that they watch their content. They should be responsible about the things that they post in the internet, it’s the same as with porn sites and illegal download sites. They are promoting sexual violence and piracy, as to the blog site I was talking about, it promotes hate and sacrilege. A total blaspheme.

I know I am not a perfect person, nor am I following all religious tradition, and I don’t have the right to rant about other people’s business regarding religion. Religion is a choice anyway, but promoting hate against other religion is out of the question, it just proves how unintellectual, disrespectful, shallow and unmoral a person truly is. I don’t really get the point of flaunting your so-called “religion” and maligning other religions, especially blogging about it. I don’t go to church just to show people that I do, and I don’t talk about my religion so that people would think that I am a true Christian, because what I do, say and write would not always make me the person I want other people to think of me. So, does writing articles that defies other religion, and flaunting your being agnostic makes you cooler?

Think again, my dear!

It makes you look bad, especially to those people who did not have a higher level of Theology and Philosophy. So keep your contents reader-worthy if you’re up for traffic, avoid defaming others, and never reason out that it’s a personal site wherein you could post whatever you want. You have put that up in the internet for public viewing in the first place, so be responsible if you don’t like other people doing this to you and your site. :wink:

*forgive the grammatical errors, and spelling if there are any. Not in the mood to edit. Will do it later.*


Filed under Food for Thoughts, General, Personal, Random Thoughts

When Attraction Dies, We Live in the Lies

I don’t believe that we are living a lie…

I hold on to the memories, those precious little treasures that we shared… the secrets, the stories and the things that we did together. I hold on to us, most importantly, because… I have to, and I have to because I want to.

Don’t think that I am falling out of love, because I am not. I am just going through a lot. The pressure from work, the problems with the publication, and some other personal crisis that I am sure you know of.

I apologize for being too stubborn, impatient and even vulnerable. I don’t really mean it. I don’t really want to hurt you, believe me… If I could do something, anything… to make up for everything, I would. But I can’t… I’m chained, as you know. Bound up to something for so long. I can’t break free, even if I want to, believe me I want to so that I could be with you. But I just can’t, although, I know someday I will be set free. I know you know what and who I am talking about.

I no longer want to apologize, it’s enough to apologize and explain once, because I’m tired of apologizing and doing the same thing again. It just does not make sense to me…

But I love you… would that be enough to make you stay?

if loving you is all I know don’t leave me in the cold, without you it’s not better without you nothing matters, nothing matters…


Filed under Food for Thoughts, General, Love, Personal, Random Thoughts
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