Au Revoir, Lola Celi.

As my fiance and I were watching Zombie land on our monthsary last Friday, June 24, my grand mother was taken in the ICU, and at 6pm that same day, she passed away.

I didn’t know until we decided to go home. I received a text message from my mom that she already passed away. In my mind, I saw my late father’s face… the one happy face that he wore just before he passed away in May of last year. I couldn’t feel that wowa (that’s what we used to call her) is dead, honestly… it’s as if she’s still there in the living room of her house, sitting in front of the TV watching random shows all day.

I honestly am bad at reacting on certain circumstances. I just don’t know how to take news like that, until the knife of pain comes rushing to me and plunging into my heart. When I was informed that my late pops was dead, it was over the phone, and I kept my facial expression and voice as I normally would speak or ask of someone. Later that morning, after hearing the news, I remembered myself tearing into a million pieces. I cried alone, I didn’t want people to see me crying, it just feel awkward to me. I held my tears for the rest of his wake, until the pain is no longer bearable, I just had to pour it out. I probably cried for hours, literally, on the last night of my father’s wake. He didn’t die a tragic death, my papa… but it’s a very tragic news to me, for just when I was just starting to include him in my plans for the future, he was taken away from me.

Going back to my grandma, I miss her, even if we haven’t shared too much of a moment together, but the little family gatherings, and visits I make in her home makes me feel terribly sad. She’s a good woman, religious, caring and loving. She’s almost the perfect grandma, but I never grew too close to her, but still she treats me as if I did. She asks for me when I fail to visit her, she always even send me home some of my favorite meals. Right now, as I make this post, I could see her face constantly flashing before my eyes.

I miss her, but like my papa, it was her time to go. We never had control over one’s life, it seems unfair, but as weird as it may seem, it’s good that they left this earth, for in the hands of God they live.

Filed under Family, General, Personal


Mkay, so I’ve stumbled upon a blog earlier this evening and I was kind of enjoying its reviews and tutorials, until I have come across an article written about how the Bible is not a reliable source. The blogger even had a timeline which I did not even read, not because it’s too long, but because I know that the facts the blogger have written are sacrilege. I scanned through the older posts and realized that the blogger was Agnostic. By definition, an Agnostic person is someone who claims that he cannot have true knowledge about the existence of God. To make things short, an Agnostic person does not believe in God, at all.

I don’t usually rant about being a Christian, knowing for a fact that I was baptized a catholic and am only attending Born-again Christian services every Sunday to grasp more insights from the Bible, but with what I have read, I think it’s totally disrespectful to even do that kind of thing, especially in a public domain such as a blog site. I don’t really know the blogger’s purpose on writing that article and posting it for the public to see, although I am aware that a webmaster has all the right to post whatever they want on their websites, BUT given that they watch their content. They should be responsible about the things that they post in the internet, it’s the same as with porn sites and illegal download sites. They are promoting sexual violence and piracy, as to the blog site I was talking about, it promotes hate and sacrilege. A total blaspheme.

I know I am not a perfect person, nor am I following all religious tradition, and I don’t have the right to rant about other people’s business regarding religion. Religion is a choice anyway, but promoting hate against other religion is out of the question, it just proves how unintellectual, disrespectful, shallow and unmoral a person truly is. I don’t really get the point of flaunting your so-called “religion” and maligning other religions, especially blogging about it. I don’t go to church just to show people that I do, and I don’t talk about my religion so that people would think that I am a true Christian, because what I do, say and write would not always make me the person I want other people to think of me. So, does writing articles that defies other religion, and flaunting your being agnostic makes you cooler?

Think again, my dear!

It makes you look bad, especially to those people who did not have a higher level of Theology and Philosophy. So keep your contents reader-worthy if you’re up for traffic, avoid defaming others, and never reason out that it’s a personal site wherein you could post whatever you want. You have put that up in the internet for public viewing in the first place, so be responsible if you don’t like other people doing this to you and your site. :wink:

*forgive the grammatical errors, and spelling if there are any. Not in the mood to edit. Will do it later.*

Filed under Food for Thoughts, General, Personal, Random Thoughts